Life after 50

I'm writing today to actually remind myself that life lessons can be learned at any age. Growing up I was always taught to have a good attitude, smile, see the silver lining, and many times be so thankful for what you have , you dont realize what your missing. This is all good but it also answers  many question why with the strong personality I am I don't like to say what I feel and I hate confrontation. (This is usually my personalities highlight of the day.)  Now that I am older,I know, keeping things bottled up is only distructive to myself. I do know it's not a free ticket to say and do whatever I want, but I know if I want to feel sad, mad, hurt, happy or whatever emotion, I can. Now to the life lesson, this week I got into a very heated discussion with someone close and they finally made a comment "why can't you just tell me what's wrong and why do you always act like everything is fine?" "Tell me the truth."  And all of those years of bottled up emotions came flooding out at one moment.  Needless to say THEY DONT WANT TO KNOW!!!!! Even if they say they do. Was it true? It was for me. Could it have been said differently? Probably. Maybe baby steps for me in this department. And btw..... It's worse on Facebook. Remember very few people care there... All you are to many is entertainment. And I like that. Go! Fight! Win! Baby!